holy shit i have let life get in the way of life! what the hell does that even mean? i've been a damn hamster on a wheel, just running around in circles! i wake up, drive to work, work my ass off for way too many hours, drive home, crash and do it all again. i should rephrase my opening statement given the fact we make life what it is; i'm getting in my own way of living! i have gotten so caught up in my 9-5 life making lots of money for someone else that i have completely lost sight of my personal desires. i am super fortunate to have a "9-5" that i absolutely adore; i am growing and have an awesome team of coworkers but i'm an idiot for getting completely consumed in that world. all of the self inflicted monotony has clogged the right side of my brain resulting in far too many weeks (ok more like months, it's so hard to admit that) of me writing. i'm not even talking about posting because lord knows i can't post everything i write but i have not taken pen to paper to just write in way too long. the lack of writing aka thinking, venting and expressing myself has caused major internal issues i'm like a bag of pent-up emotions…bad news, i'm too emotional of a human being to not let it out ha! not a day went by where i didn't say "ugh, i miss writing, i wish i was writing" but a hell of a lot days went by with no action. honestly, at first i was just overwhelmed with my new "9-5" routine (i got a promotion since i've been gone!) and i didn't have time, then i didn't know how to find balance, and then i just was embarrassed and didn't know how to explain my absence (to you guys, duh!), and then i hit the right brain road block thing i was talking about. but i'm back for not only my readers but for me, this is my thing, my place to just be me…let loose and do what i do and it's an added bonus that people appreciate it and engage (thanks for that, it's super motivating).
unfortunately when i got stuck in this rut i didn't just stop writing; i stopped texting, touching base, making calls, calling just to say "hello", asking "how was your day", dropping by to catch up, breaking a daily sweat, and so much more! since i cannot turn back the hands of time i have to accept it as one of life's lessons and simply learn from it. i won't even call it a mistake, because if it didn't happen i wouldn't have made the change.
with that, i will remind you now that i've remembered "live what you love"! life is far too short to live a life of monotony and without meaning. go for it! dream big! work hard! play hard! remember what's important to YOU and know there is always time for change. also, don't wait for monday to start or the 1st of the next month…do it now!
okay thanks for listening i'm out! that felt good!